Monday, October 26, 2009

Horrible

She's 57. She's only 57.
"I'm 57, Rebecca! I still have a life to lead. I'm only 57!"

This is horrible. She is so angry with me. She has resorted to lying and begging and yelling. What am I to do but protect her body from her mind in the best way I know how to? This is horrible.

Forgive me for not returning phone calls. Forgive me for not blogging. Please. I have my thick soul shell up. I can't cry yet, so I can't talk to you Sweet People who love me so, yet. Know that I love you and am grateful for your attention. Don't give up on me.

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  1. We're here, darling. I wish we could help.

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  2. You're under my skin and in my heart. I'm always right here waiting for you to drop the shell and call me to vent. But pretty soon, I'll be right there and still waiting for you to drop the shell to vent.

    (((((BIG HUGS))))) I love you pretty girl.

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  3. no way we'll give up.
    hold on tight.

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  4. good luck and know that we are here!

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  5. (((hugs))) from me too!

    I'll keep hugging until you can hug back.

    Sending lots of love to everyone.

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  6. Wow....only 57 !?!?! No wonder there's a fight.

    Hoping you the best. You're not far so don't even try to get away.

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  7. we love you tons girl.
    we will be here when you come back.
    call if you need to vent.
    big super hugs from us.
    you are doing the right thing.

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  8. Oh Becca. This makes me want to cry.
    You're on my mind and in my heart constantly XX

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  9. Becca, reading this makes my heart break for you...I'll be here for you whatever way I can :)

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  10. It is horrible. And IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT. Remember that, cause so often it's so easy for us to think that it is. It's not your fault. Regardless of what happens.

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  11. Hold fast, watch the sun rise and know as it does there are those who think of you.

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  12. Um, life comes before blogging. Hang in there, we would never give up on you...I think of you often...

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  13. hang in there, honey. something will make you laugh. maybe it's Dawg calling on her Bitches, maybe its the dog licking its butt... the dam may break... someday your light will burst out and shine again.

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